"Rebooting"

Today I deleted all my past posts. It's funny how it's so easy to delete everything from the past on the computer but there's no way to push a "reset" or "backspace" button in our lives. My boyfriend Adrian was able to in a way, although he spent 3 days of hurt. I don't think I could ever, things are always scratched too deep, and as most of my friends are aware of I'm an overthinker. So although I can't go back in time, I'm starting over this blog with all seriousness, or so I hope, I could never keep a journal for long.

Beginning with the Middle of Senior year

Current age: 17

Current Dilemma: Trying hard not to make a big deal out of everything and go with the flow.

I've been submerging myself in everyone's lives lately, ironic because in middle school all I did was try to keep away from everyone as much as possible. It's also one reason one of my friends decided to leave, for "worrying too much, because its hurting you" so he pushed me away. For some reason although I dont talk to Elio anymore I cant get over the fact a person would honestly leave me to protect me from themselves -_-. I'm not sure what the reason exactly is that I dive into their lives, though the obvious answer would seem to be that I care, and although I do it seems as if there's more reasons than that.

We've been working on this thing called the literary magazine, also known as "Mango Juice" for the past year....I'm thinking a good name change would help but everyone seems to prefer this one. There are serious issues with the staff though -_-. For one Dylan and Miguel (the first Editor and the latter co-editor) do not seem to agree on much. Jackie (the poetry director) was told by Miguel that she doesnt do much....she's not very happy. Our very own random facts guy Elio leaves work for last minute so theres going to be a problem with that. Adrian.....well he's finding quotes now so everything is fine. And me? I'm in everybody's business so I'm concerned with all of the above.