I woke up in the morning with no energy, nothing to fuel me except for how tomorrow Adrian's going to Buffalo to get a scholarship for a college 7 hours away. So I wanted to see him before he left. I should start from the beginning of things and get to now.
First period, a breeze, second, then third. Lunch. I honestly dont know what I'm going to do about Elio. Okay sure I got mad at Adrian over something stupid, and that happens a lot. Later I realize that what I've done is stupid and make it up to him because I love him. But no, Elio whos sitting there absorbes everything, and although he distinctly pushed the rest of us away from his personal life due to his "new life" (and for the record, I dont have anything against his girlfriend, I actually think now that I judged too harshly, yes I admit it) he decides to get into my business and tell everyone. He told Jacks, Miguel, and neighbor (a freshmen we became friends with who lives in the sam building as me) EVERYTHING. I do stupid things but thats between me and Adrian not EVERYONE to know....Elio changed, he doesn't talk to anyone anymore, only Miguel on certain occasions and even he notes a change. Right now he's not focusing on anyone but his girlfriend. Not only that he doesnt do his homework, he finds it funny now that he keeps getting 68s in class. I know that sounds like whoa so you have to be a smarty pants but he used to actually care about stuff before.....*shrugs* only reason I mentioned this is cuz he ticked me off today, moving on.
The literary magazine is coming out....okay, Jacks got control and Miguel knows it. Dylan still needs Miguel by his side (I'm not gonna give opinions anymore T_T I feel like I cant get this setting up thing right, I'm sticking to art). Adrian and Elio both did their parts in the quotes and random facts section so thats going pretty good. I'm not sure though how its all gonna fit. When Tash was the editor things went more smoothly there really wasnt much competition (although she did get mad at me once just for talking T_T. You did Tash you did.)
Adrian...I have complete bittersweet feelings about all of this. I talked to ma today and told her. I said that I was so happy because he's worked hard for this, through it all he's gotten great grades in everything (psych doesnt count Adrian that subject's hard!)....He's very ambitious you know? Being a Physician's Assistant...its not his passion, but its something he will succeed in, because he has that ability. Then I felt worried, the futures coming fast and that may affect him in some way and it did this past week, I didnt know what to do to help him although he's better now. And last....I'm...sad...I suppose. He's going far away. And even if I get into Wells and he's in Daemen its still 2 hours away. Can you believe the change? We see each other everyday in school and he comes over my house atleast twice a week, that'll be a change. When I told ma I (I'm sorry I try not to didnt even think it was coming, no I'm not a wimp or anything) started crying.....there I said it.
Tomorrow I'm going to Dylan's house with Tash.....sometimes I can't believe I have these two people. They're....Tash waited for me despite the fact I "left" for a while and Dylan's always trying to cheer me up. I'll tell you all about tomorrow's adventerous day....and leave out some parts...hehehe.
Until tomorrow.
Reni <3
1 comment:
Aww Reni dont be sad. I know the futures comming fast but its comming fast for all of us. Maybe it'll be good for you and adrian to be apart for a while. Think of it as a way to bring yourselves closer. It'll be a way to prove how strong your love is. Dont be so sad and even though you are being far far away from me i'll always be there for you if you need to call me. Dont ever forget that. I would drive my ass up there for you.
And I get the elio thing. Maybe he'll stop eventually dont get too mad at him. Personally I think we should stop telling him to do his work maybe he'll figure it out on his own. And I know what its like to have people interfering so i know how you feel. Just ignore it.
Everything is gonna be fine okay..I loves you..<33
How about now?? lmao
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